Post #75 of ANNIE B.’s D.I.Y. MAGAZINE
Too much has happened since my last blog, so I can’t really update you with everything. The most tragic for me is the loss of my boyfriend, and the cause of his death is unknown, making this whole thing even more difficult to cope with. This happened on Jan. 22nd, and I am completely devastated. I think you can understand why I have not been my normal, active self.
I know that he would NOT want my life and my world to stop because of his death, and I am now resolute on being even more active in doing all the things I need to be doing to reach my career goals. It’s been almost 6 weeks of not being able to even get out of bed, and kind of being in a daze during all of my waking hours. I am very blessed that my friends have been totally there for me, helping me through this most difficult time in my life. Without you, my friends, I don’t know how I would have got through these last 5 1/2 weeks.
Mike was always UBER-supportive of my music & my career, although he often felt like he was “#19 on my list,” as he often put it, especially since my parents (now just my mom,) have always come first. I obviously feel incredibly remorseful that he felt that way, and I wish I could go back and change it all.
No matter what, Mike wanted me to chase after my dreams, and he was always very proud of all the things I have been able to accomplish, both before & after we met. My promise to him is to WIN THAT GRAMMY. He would be so proud to be there with me when this happens. And he will be there. He will be there in my heart, walking with me when I approach the stage accepting the award.
So, I thank you, my friends, for helping me to get through this. Please continue with your prayers, as the healing process for myself and Mike’s family is still underway.
God bless you.